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Journal Entry: Wed Sep 10, 2014, 11:17 PM
I've never told anyone about you until now.
I want this new relationship to be a means to the end of my loneliness with you, because I want something real somethong more than a superficial shared fantasy of an intangible relationship that could never happen or work in the first place. 
Whatever happens I will always think of you fondly, but I sincerely hope we are never lonely together again. 
May this be goodbye forever. 
So long space cowboy.  

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Journal Entry: Sun Aug 31, 2014, 1:49 PM
I'm looking for
that last love

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Journal Entry: Fri Aug 15, 2014, 8:50 PM
Last night an idea found its way into my thoughts planting a seed in my mind.. Quickly it took root breaking the surface, and as the night seemed to stretch on past normal hours, vines formed branching and spreading their tendrils like a wild fire. They took hold and intertwined with all of my thoughts consuming them until there was nothing left but dreams of ivy and so much longing--and all because I simply imagined being tucked in at night. :(

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Journal Entry: Wed Aug 13, 2014, 10:32 AM
The potential of something good happening is now lost in the memories of yesterday. Each wasted opportunity building your regret, numbing your ability to feel. Slowly disconnecting from your dreams you become the husk of the person you wanted to be.. Who was that again?

Pills and doors

Journal Entry: Sun Aug 10, 2014, 11:35 PM
I lead this pack of wolves. Nip nip nipping at my heels. 

change

Journal Entry: Sat Jul 26, 2014, 4:18 AM
Some day when the wind blows
wrapping itself around me
raising the little hairs on my arms
I wont be able to describe it

Some day the wind will blow
picking up the crisp leaves
swaying each tender branch
and I will not be able to feel it

Some day while the wind blows
parting the soft hairs on your head
caressing your weathered skin
I will cease to be in your thoughts

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Journal Entry: Fri Jul 11, 2014, 3:22 PM
Longing, we say, because desire is full of endless distances - R. Hauss

I measure the distance between us
by the second hand
with each deliberate tick 
the space between us grows
 when there is no A and or/no B
everything will mean nothing
for now I relish in the memories



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Journal Entry: Wed Jul 9, 2014, 12:43 PM
"And sometimes when you're on
you're really fucking on

And your friends they sing along and they love you
But the lows are so extreme that the good seems fucking chea."p

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Journal Entry: Tue Jun 24, 2014, 1:47 PM
I think I had known you would be walking out of my life forever. It's not easy.. you were so many wonderful, beautiful things, but I could only love you
in the abstract.

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Journal Entry: Sun Nov 10, 2013, 9:17 PM
 "I will not let go. I do not accept the ephemeral nature of this moment. I'm going to extend it forever. Or at least I'm going to try." 
- J. Silva


taste

Journal Entry: Mon Oct 21, 2013, 4:30 PM
I took a drink from an ample stream, a fool to drink.. to drink and not to taste.

set fire

Journal Entry: Wed Sep 25, 2013, 6:49 PM
It has been ages, but I am still burning with the same intensity.... exactly how you left me..